Salaam
Woke up this morning having a very strange thought. Did I have
the same dream like yesterday’s? I just don’t get why. It was really ridiculous
this time. It frightened me so well that I thought it was real. Was I really
miss that person……..
So I was still in a mode of frightening. Since yesterday and
I don’t know why. Perhaps the jitters I’d have when it comes to think about the
future. Time really does go fast. Im afraid of my future somehow. Im afraid I will
miss this free-relaxing-enjoying time once im already in the university. Im afraid
I’d have fun and not being serious again. Im worried that much. But I know, all
those thought are just gonna let me down and give me frown. That is why, I immediately
think about other things that can make me forget them. For awhile. So I whatsapp
Raby. She has kinda helped me a lot. Im grateful.
Mak and abah. They’ve really helped me with this. They
support all the way me though I’ve hurt and let em down. Im just so terharu and
speechless. They’re my everything. Alhamdulillah. They made my night. So there I
was, making the right decision for the future. insyaAllah
The night is really a plot of today. I was smiling like and
idiot. Tak sangka had a prank call from FZ “… saya dari pusat serenti..” mak
aih. Tersentak sekejap. Sentap kejap. I recognized the voice and then the words
he was saying after that were really out of logic. So I laughed and said “pahal
nak prank ni. Kuaja” lol that was it.
does a third chance even exist?
it might be a fresh new start of my life again